Repost from Updates: "Why"

I posted this on my updates and wanted to share here as well.

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I'm with a company called PeopleString. To help me with growing my 'string' I sought out help from a mentor.

My mentor has had me listen to an audio that suggests to write down your "why". The reason why you are with the company and why you will stick with it through the down times.

As many of you know, I came from an abusive background, have been homeless, $0 to my name many times, and frustrated because I didn't know how to get out.

Two things to highlight about PeopleString:
1) It is free to join
2) It is easy to understand what to do.

When I first listened to the chapter about "why" I wrote this down:

"Why? What does he mean why?

Because it's the right thing to do! To show people how to make money from $0 so that they can be FREE. (underlined and circled a couple of times.) It's F***ED up not knowing anything and wanting to learn but being told you have to pay to learn how to make money. WTF? I HAVE NO MONEY if I'm hungry and homeless!!! I did not want a hand out just freedom. I can use PS to free others. To show them how to earn money but then also how to budget that money so they are free. That's why. To free others while freeing myself.

(on the back a few hours later)

So that Ai (my 5 month old son) doesn't have to be raised by someone else while I make money. I want to mentor him, witness him growing, and learn from him. I can't imagine seeing him shut away in some daycare during these months when he needs to be bonding with me. I witnessed the first time he sat up. The first time he stood up. His first bath. I want to witness his first walk and his first few words. I want to be a MOM (Circled)."

I was afraid to share my "why". Concerned that it was not 'enough' or that others would see it as 'fake' or 'weak'. It has taken me a good week of hard core thinking on this and I've decided that my "why" is for me.

When I tuck my son in at night and add another page to my site instead of getting some much needed sleep- I know my "why".

My "Why"s

Freedom
&
Motherhood